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Confessions....

I'm bitter. I'm angry with her.

I smoked pot this weekend.

I took a pain killer this weekend. A big one.

I masturbated last night... and then cried. Because I thought of her.

I want her back, dammit.

I haven't eaten today. I only ate yesterday because Laura wouldn't quit staring at me until I put food in my mouth.

I'm having regular panic attacks at work each night. At least two a week right now. Fucking "whiirrr" sound.

Part of me wishes I never met her. A small part.

I'm going to go to Northwest next semester... because it's cheap, in state tution... and because I don't have to worry about pissing off Julie because Allison will be there.

I'm depressed.

I saw Josh Miller at work last night. That look of hatred he gave me... it hurt.

I want a rebound fuck. But I'd cry afterwards... or... rather... during.

I'm still holding hope. That's so, so sad.

I want her to call me... right now.

I'm going to get my tongue ring on Friday.

No... Wait. I'm getting it tonight!!!

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Name: Mallory
Birf-day: Aug. 23rd
Nickname(s): Mal, Malady, Mathery, Gangsta Lesbian
Occupation: FedEx hub worker, ToGo hostess at Outback Steakhouse, and installer and maintenance for AutoSan
Loves: Julie, sleep!, moose tracks ice cream, blue jeans, butterflies!
Hates: broke-ness, depression, traffic, coupla exes
Favorite Belly Bean: margarita!
Family: Mom, Dad, Logan (15), Lucy the Wonder Puppy
Favorite Diaries: Julie!!!, TranceJen, The Bean, Bobby, Jenn and KiKi