1. A disease, a disorder, or an ailment.
2. An unwholesome condition: the malady of discontent.
Five days and one hour...
She left just a few days ago. Five days and one hour ago... to be exact. Sometimes it's like she's not gone. When I wake up... I just go in the living room and pretend she's still asleep in bed. That only works until about 6 pm. It hits me then. That span of time between "The Simpsons" and when we... I mean, I leave for work. And god... When I get home at four in the morning and no one else is around. That's the hardest of all. She's... always been there, you know?
I finally told Julie the truth. I told her I'm not in love with her. That I want to be with Kelly... even though Kelly is gone. Wow. To see Jules get that angry in person... It was an experience. She calmed down. We talked. We cried. She left. She walked out the door... and a burden lifted off my chest. I just couldn't do it. I respect her enough to not play the game with her. So I stopped. I hurt myself... but I hurt her more. It had to be done. Had to be done...
And when Kelly comes back into town? I don't know. She may move back in with me. We may get back together. She may find the fucking love of her life up there in DC. It's only been five days and one hour, you know? There's still over three and a half months left of this torture. I'm... scared.
And I feel so so alone.