1. A disease, a disorder, or an ailment.
2. An unwholesome condition: the malady of discontent.
Dealing with the "L"
Readers... You are going to think I'm exceedingly fucking in the head... but really, I'm more sane than all of you! *mwahahahaaaa*
Kelly hit the nail on the fucking head with this entry.
I had been thinking about it... and that crazy, crazy, crazy word had been floating around in my head for a coupla days. But the point that I had been in a serious relationship not so long ago and that we've only been together three weeks... It scared the fuck out of me!
But I told her what I was feeling... I played it down, yes. Got antsy and nervous while telling her about it. And I saw that involuntary gasp escape from her when that vicious yet exciting "L" word came from my lips. that was a few days ago. Monday, maybe? Tuesday? No... Monday, I'm most sure.
Yesterday. Wednesday. We were in bed... and this beautiful woman looks at me, pauses, and says, "I think I'm falling in love with you." My turn for the gaspy thingie. We discussed it for a while... got scared... kinda fought even... or rather... got frustrated. And I called my good buddy, Laura, and told her what happened.
"You see... wha ha ha-pen wuz..."
And good buddy Laura told me to calm the fuck down. Let it flow. :)
My friends and I are great with relationship clichès. "What happens... happens." "Go with the flow." "If it's meant to be, it'll be." I follow them religiously, dontcha know?
Anyway... so I went into FedEx... inducted inducted inducted loaded... and thought about this all night. And calmed the fuck down... and quit worrying about it. I like Kelly a whole hellva lot. And I do have some kind of love for her. We're afraid of hurting each other... and getting hurt. But this relationship can only be what we make it. Yes... You learn from your past relationships. You know what works and what doesn't. But it's just us. Not her or her or him.
Grrr....
She took me to my car last night. We talked for a while. Random things. She told me about her trip to Australia way back when. I see the joy in her eyes every time she talks about it. Makes me smile now. But her head was on my shoulder... and she whispered, "I love you." Smile smile smilesmileSMILE!!! And I waited a few moments and laughingly said, "That's cool, because I love you too." *sigh*
Need sleep.