1. A disease, a disorder, or an ailment.
2. An unwholesome condition: the malady of discontent.
What a season to be beautiful without a reason...
My mood has soared this week. Really! It has! Getting a day job... especially one I enjoy... has helped tremendously. I'm doing stuff and meeting people and making money. It's stressful, yes... But a good kind of stress. The kind of stress that you deal with and then come home... and feel proud of yourself and the X amount in tips you made.
I kind of "broke up" with Kelly this week too. Or something. I don't know. It's hard to explain really. I guess this is the bottom line to it all. I need to know something from her. I need to know whether she wants to pursue this relationship with me or not... now and when she comes back to Memphis. And if she doesn't know yet... I at least need to know that she's not sure right now... Not just... nothing. Hence... If she doesn't wnat to be with me and she just doesn't know how to tell me... I wish she would... It'd be a lot easier to get over with her in DC for two more months than if she comes back and moves back in then two weeks later or something moves back out. Talking to her on the phone just kind of goes back and forth. I've given myself a goal... Do not talk to her about relationship issues for at least two weeks. That started... I think last Thursday. Anyway... So until then... I try not to overanalyze it too much. Just let her think about whatever she wants...
And I'm not crazy upset about "breaking up" with her. I'm pretty sure Kelly wants to be with me. And I'm just relying on that confidence.
I'm going through a personal music revolution. Listening to popular stuff... just things I've never taken the time out to listen to. The White Stripes. Tenacious D. The Darkness. The Vines. That might have something to do with my mood switch.... Oh yeah... And, of course, the point that I've been taking my meds again. Yay for Mal! Lovin' the added bonus of weight loss. Heh heh heh...
Think I'm gonna Limewire for a bit.